I'm a fickle creature, at best. Usually this is something we laugh at but today I find myself absolutely frustrated.
There are few things in life that I know without certain that I want. I know I want to spend the rest of my life writing. I know I want friends and loved ones close by.
But other than that I feel like everything is trial and error. I act on something that feels absolutely certain and then immediately I regret or question it. Yes, I was feeling that strongly at that moment but maybe I don't have the right to feel that way--maybe that feeling will vanish after I've done it because I just needed to express that feeling in order for it to get out of my system.
And maybe that's how life is but it doesn't seem very fair to anyone affected by it.
I know, I know. Life isn't fair.